I think Heavenly Father made service so we can learn to be happy.
I have found that anytime I begin to feel sad or just not happy and I pray for something to help me to smile, usually an oportunity to serve comes along. Sometimes I don't even need to pray, He just knows that I need something.
Heavenly Father knows you and your struggles and He knows what you need better then you do.
So I was starting to question my my whole choice in majors (again) because I just have days/times where I just feel incredibly inadequate. Yet when these doubting thoughts come I am reminded of last semester when I prayed and just knew I was making the right decision. As I watched the talent of so many others I began to doubt again. Then I sang with the institute choir with a solo in one of the songs. I had one girl who told me good job and that her parents actually wanted to meet me. I was kinda in shock a little. Then I had a recital Monday night and was nervous but excited at the same time. I sang and tried so hard to just sing and not focus on other things that might distract my singing. I had one guy come up and say how much he loved hearing me sing and my voice. Although I didn't know it, I needed to hear that so much. Then I had my final in Elements of conducting today. (oh if you can't tell by now I'm a music major). That reminded me how much I would love to direct a choir. Even though I'm not great now I know I can be. I at least have an idea of my potential in life. Although I can't see the whole picture of my life, there is a light shining on a small piece of it, and I like how it's turning out at this point.
I am convinced that if we knew our potential the way God does, it might scare us a little.
I don't know if it's just me or what, but everytime things start going like really good and I start to see awesome things ahead, it's like I get scared of the idea that things could be so great. yes that sounds weird I know. I remember praying one night asking Heavenly Father a few questions just kinda about his plans for me. Then a thought came to me that seemed to say "If I told you, you would just mess it all up." I thought that was interesting because it seems to be true. There are some things that I know I could do but I'm not ready to know that. I can't wait for the moment when I am.
Some people were sent to be helped and others were sent to help. which are you?
I think at different times in our lives we are one or the other and sometimes even both. Sometimes trying to help someone else actually helps you more then it helps them :) and sometimes it's the other way.... anyways
Those are just some ideas of Jessalyn on life for today anyways. Since I think a lot I will most likely write more :) night
A Friend Always,
Me
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