So I have a friend that updates a blog like once a month and I always look forward to reading it. I have no idea if anyone looks forward to my blog posts like I do with this friend, but I decided to post an update of me just in case someone does like to read what I have to say.
So I'm working two jobs. A gas station cashier 4 days a week, and a waitress 1 day a week, on a normal week. I am auditioning for my county talent show tonight. It will be here in the wonderful town I live in on November 9th if anyone wants to come. I will make sure I post if I make it to perform that night. I have two songs I'm doing. One is a song I wrote the piano part and the lyrics. the other my brother wants me to learn by tonight... so we can sing it together. hopefully I will have it learned by then. :D
I have an old guy (like white hair prolly at least in his 60's ish) who thinks I'm concieted. I love this story. I find it funny so I will share it. He always comes in and buys the scratcher and lottery tickets hoping to win something big (like a 1000 or more). (side note- everyone I've asked who buys lottery tickets or does gambling of any kind says if they wanted to break even they'd have to win a whole lot. like at least 10,000. so I think the whole lottery thing is rather pointless. Except for the fact that if they win more then like 20 some will share what they win with the person who sold them the ticket or cashed it in for them. so I'm way ahead of a game I've never played because of that :D) anyways, So this guy is one who doesn't share when he wins. BUT, one day he came in and said "What are we gonna do with you?" I looked at him rather confused and asked what he meant. He said "We'll take you out and buy you some new clothes and to a hair salon to get your hair done all pretty." I asked why and his responce was "To make you beautiful." I told him "But I'm already beautiful" (any one who knows me well knows I say things like this a lot) So he changed it to "to make you more beautiful" I told him that I didn't think that could make me more beautiful than I already am. so he called me concieted and walked out the door. This conversation has come up later, but I found it quite funny. My co workers thought he was being kind of rude, but I've gotten the same reaction the old guy gave several times before. So I'm confident in my side that I am beautiful.
Later I was talking to one of my coworkers and she said she didn't like talking about herself and the whole "self gratification" thing so she won't say she's beautiful or anything really good about herslf because you're suppose to praise God. I asked her if God would want us to call his creations beautiful. I think God wants us to be happy and confident. I'm not confident because I of myself am beautiful. I am beautiful because God me. Basically Alma 26 is my definition of being humble and confident. when you talk about all the good things happening in your life, you need to give credit to God for the blessings you're receiveing. I'm not perfect at it. I guaruntee that. But I also think we should be grateful to God for the hard times. They happen for a reason and God knows better then anyone else how to make a situation that seems terrible at the time into something you can be grateful for throughout the rest of your life if you let Him.
Anyways, that's just some thoughts from me. I definately recommend reading Alma 26 and the chapters following. For years I was so confused about being humble and happy asnd confident. I searched everywhere for an answer, and wouldn't you know, the answer was in the books I carry around all the time. sitting right next to my bed or on my desk. all I had to do was read.
Make Today Spectacular
A Friend Always,
Jessalyn
