pretty good

you know there are times I wish when I said I'm good, or pretty good that there was someone who knew me well enough to know and cared wnough to look me in the eyes to see if I was really telling the truth. There's a reason I ask just good or ok or alright, not great or wonderful or spectacular. It's hard to sat something like spectacular without smiling which is why I say it.

wow I didn't know just typing this up would make me smile just a little more. Maybe I should not keep feeling in so much.

Journals,

So, I haven't written on here in a while. I have been thinking lately that I might start writing in my journal more often. I was reading through my old entries and it's very interesting to see how I've changed and what was important to me then. It's also fun to remember things that happened that I had forgotten about. I wrote yesterday and realized there is so much I want to say and write about life. I don't write very often though so I didn't realize how awesome it is to be able to express your soul to your journal and then go back and see how you felt about life later on and how time has changed your perspective on life. I also need to continue with my other blogs because maybe someone will read them and find something I write important. If it doesn't help them, it will still help me to get out the ideas that are burning inside me. I think so much. I have so many insights and thoughts and ideas and everything I just need a way to express them. Writing helps with that. anyways I need to get back to astronomy Homework.

Just some ideas.

A Friend Always,

Me

"Someone"

someone to talk to
someone to tease
someone who listens
someone who smiles
someone who is there even after you're been a jerk
someone who sees something in you that you don't see in yourself (or that you forgot was there)
someone who is willing to do things for you
someone who makes you do things you "don't want to" (eventhough secretly you do)
someone who helps you smile
someone who makes you laugh when you don't even want to smile
someone to be silly with
someone who talks to you
someone to have a real conversation with
someone to swing on swings with
someone to act childish with :)
someone who knows when to stop
someone who knows how and when to have fun
someone who dries the tears you aren't crying (at least not yet)
someone who knows how to put a heart together even when you didn't realize it was broken
someone who says cute things that make you smile
someone who cares about you just because you're you
someone who sees things in you no one else does
someone who knows you and is still a friend
someone who shows you what you can be
someone who makes you a better person just by there presence in your life
........................................

Someone Like You


just some thoughts

A Friend Always,
Jessalyn

Missing?

Hi, you know I don't even know if anyone reads this besides my mom sometimes, but I was thinking and thought I'd write down some ideas.
So I was listening to a song and singing along and part of the song lists things the person singing misses. I connected with the song really well. I really feel like I miss those things, eventhough a lot of them have never happened to me. It's amazing how music can affect you.
Anyways, as this thought came to mind I started wondering, "is it possible to miss a memory that never happened?" idk the answer to this. I just thought I'd pose the question. It's something to think about.

Just some ideas

A Friend Always,
Me

Connections

I was just thinking. It's interesting how things connect in life. So many things. Yeah there are specifics but I like being vague. I was just reading something yesterday and noticed how a few things I've been told about me all connect to the same thing. It's interesting, isn't it? to find a way to put everything you've learned or need to do into one category. then you feel a little more productive because your plans are all leading you to the same goal in the end.

Just some ideas,

A Friend Always,

Me

Some people

You know there are some people in life where you just have to wonder what in the world they are doing as part of your life. Then there are others that you have no idea what you would do without. Still there are others where you're not sure why they are there at the moment, but some day you may figure it out.
So the reason for this topic is cuz there's this kid that like everything he says seems to be inspired for me to hear. Seriously, I don't know how he does it. Well there's actually there's more then one, but that's not the point. If you read the last post I wrote it kind of describes how I've been feeling lately and there's two people that said things thta made me feel so much better about life really. It was just interesting to me.
It's crazy. I'm finding out more and more each day how much more I have in common with people.
Yeah this seems incredibly vague and people may not understand what I'm saying, but that's good because I don't really want them to.. LOL
amyways

Just some thoughts

A Friend Always,
Me

The Inner Battle of a Princess

So I've been on this whole princess thing for a while (like since last week sometime, like mondayish) anyways. I'm not sure how to describe what I've been thinking. I don't know why I'm so into the whole princess thing, but I really like the idea. I feel like my spirit inside me is ready to burst. It wants to come out and fly and show it's true royal beauty but part of me wants to keep my thoughts and such hidden. I feel like a little kid who is being told to grow up already. Except I'm 19 1/2. I shouldn't be imagining this fairytale life, at least that's what part of me is saying. but there's another part of me that feels this is right. I wish I could explain the pictures and dreams I see when I close my eyes and sometimes even when my eyes are open. I seem to be living in an altered reality. An altered reality that I actually really like. Except for the fact that others may think I'm crazy, but I guess they can think whatever they want. I just wish I could talk about things without people looking at me like I'm some crazy person. I wish I knew that people understood the way I see life. The idea of being a princess and becoming queen has made me want to be so much better and to work hard and just be my best. I want to be a queen and share the joy I've found with others. I wish I had the words or the skills to describe or draw the things my mind imagines or sees. When I talk about being a princess something inside me gets all excited like something inside me wants to be free. my ballroom dance class isn't helping because I go and feel as if I'm a princess at the ball, eventhough others may not see me the way I see me.
I just want to be a princess... this part of me seems to be longing to be set free. If only I could find the courage to let the world see me the way I see me.

Just some thoughts

A Friend Always,
Me

Just thinking about life... April 19, 2009

so I'm sitting here procrastinating my paper (again) and just thinking why I can't just sit down and just write the paper. I know I will feel about a million times better once I'm finished but I am having great difficulty making myself focus long enough for the paper to be writen. blah. So I like how this automatically saves what you're writing every like minute or something because then you don;t have to worry about everything you just wrote being deleted if something crazy happens and your interenet is shut off. It's very nice. Microsoft Word should do that with their program so you don't have to press the save button every time you want to save something. It should just automatically save it every minute so you don't have to worry if you forgot to save it. That would be nice, but maybe I'm just lazy and that would make things easier for me. Then again, just having Microsoft word on my computer here at home would make things a lot easier for me, At least when it comes to writing my paper. Well I'm just kinda rambling on and I better get to my paper so I will write later.

Just some thought

A Friend Always,
Me

thoughts, quotes, ect from my facebook page

Jessalyn Rose is so amazing that placing a number on it would degrade the amazingness (no I'm not concieted, what are you talking about? I just know who I am.)

Jessalyn Rose there's just something about a smile..... you only need one to create many :)
Mon April 13 9:41am ·

Jessalyn Rose why does history repeat itself? and how can you make the circle STOP?
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Jessalyn Rose is thinking "maybe I can't make something happen, but I can show there is light and hope in every situation"
April

Jessalyn Rose Mr. Internet, why must you continually freeze up when I am typing?(April 5 @9:29pm)

Jessalyn Rose Internet, why must you freeze up like this? It is becoming annoying. Is it because I spend too much time with you? If you want me to get a life outside of facebook you could just say that you know... LOL (yes I talk to my computer) (April 5 @9:16pm)

Jessalyn Rose in a storm it rains on everyone, but you get to pick your shelter
April 5 at 11:35am

Jessalyn Rose "Be your own kind of beautiful the best that you can be smile your own kind of smile.... just being you is sure to make the world a better place"
April 4 at 3:33pm

Jessalyn Rose is wondering why it always comes back to one... no matter all the places it may be
April 4 at 3:14pm


Jessalyn Rose has one true friend in the universe, who believes in me... (I think I quote seussical way too much LOL)
April 3 at 11:22pm

Jessalyn Rose challenges you to go 24 hours without saying something negative about anyone (including yourself) :) (idea from John Hilton III)
April 3 @ 6:06 pm

Jessalyn Rose happiness is a choice
March 30 at 11:01am

Jessalyn Rose "and when you get the choice to sit it out or dance... I HOPE YOU DANCE"
March 28 at 2:04pm

Jessalyn Rose wishes that she could be as awesome with people around as she is when she thinks no one is can see or hear her.
March 28 at 1:27pm

Jessalyn Rose thinks "I like wind, it teaches me so much"
March 26 at 3:56pm

just some thoughts I thought I'd share

A Friend Always,
Me

Another thought, jst before going to bed

Why settle for being treated like royalty when you can become royalty?

I just had to write that before I went to sleep so I'd remember it. I'll add more tomorrow, but what I'm talking about is that going to the temple is making covenants that take you one step closer to becoming like God, a king or Queen, royalty in his house... So then why settle for less then that? Is the worldly pleasure of being treated like something you are not at this point more appealing then actually becoming a True King or Queen in the Kingdom of our father? It's all about perspective, I think. and with matters such as this you definately have to have a perspective that is eternal. You also have to have faith and truly believe in the truth you have been taught. I guess this perspective is not for everyone, but it is true. I wish I could share with the world the importance of The Gospel of Jesus Christ as restored by the prophet Joesph Smith. The one and only completely true gospel on the earth in the latterdays. I wish the world could know the joy that comes from knowing through the temple our families can be together forever. Because of the truth that has been restored, we can become kings and queens in the kingdom of our father with our family relations lasting for all eternity.

So when I ask why settle for being treated like royalty when you could be royalty? I am really just asking why settle for the worlds marrage of "til death do us part" with someone who "treats you like royalty" and was the first to really come around. when you could wait and find someone who not only treats you like royalty but can help you become royalty by being sealed to you for time and all eternity through a temple marrage.

Just some thoughts

A Friend Always,
Me

English 102 and the Spirit

Ok so I'm taking ENG 102 this semester and usually I don't have any problems, ok very few problems, with English but for some reason this semester has been so difficult for me. I even noticed how sometimes I leave very upset or angry or just not happy, idk exactly the emotion. Anyways, I had a couple days in a row after going to english class that I left incredibly like angry, and I didn't know why. I didn't like the poetry our teacher was picking because some of the things discussed were sooooo not things I wanted to hear. But I have an institute class after english on mon and wed and the days I was so like blah, were the days I was stuck (I make it sound like a bad thing) playing the piano in the class. after playing I felt much better. I realized that the spirit seemed to leave me and the music was just bringing it back. so I started playing hymns and preparing spiritually as well as englishly (lol you know what I mean) before class. I also notice the things I could have prepared for but had procrastinated I got less help on then those things that were new material or that I had worked on for some time. It's interesting to me how the Spirit and our Heavenly Father work sometimes. It's kinda like my parents, I can';t expect them to do everything for me if I don't put forth any effort. You have to put forth effort too... it's the only way you learn and gain experience.

just some thoughts

A Friend Always,
Me

Some thoughts on life today... April 14, 2009

I think Heavenly Father made service so we can learn to be happy.
I have found that anytime I begin to feel sad or just not happy and I pray for something to help me to smile, usually an oportunity to serve comes along. Sometimes I don't even need to pray, He just knows that I need something.

Heavenly Father knows you and your struggles and He knows what you need better then you do.
So I was starting to question my my whole choice in majors (again) because I just have days/times where I just feel incredibly inadequate. Yet when these doubting thoughts come I am reminded of last semester when I prayed and just knew I was making the right decision. As I watched the talent of so many others I began to doubt again. Then I sang with the institute choir with a solo in one of the songs. I had one girl who told me good job and that her parents actually wanted to meet me. I was kinda in shock a little. Then I had a recital Monday night and was nervous but excited at the same time. I sang and tried so hard to just sing and not focus on other things that might distract my singing. I had one guy come up and say how much he loved hearing me sing and my voice. Although I didn't know it, I needed to hear that so much. Then I had my final in Elements of conducting today. (oh if you can't tell by now I'm a music major). That reminded me how much I would love to direct a choir. Even though I'm not great now I know I can be. I at least have an idea of my potential in life. Although I can't see the whole picture of my life, there is a light shining on a small piece of it, and I like how it's turning out at this point.

I am convinced that if we knew our potential the way God does, it might scare us a little.
I don't know if it's just me or what, but everytime things start going like really good and I start to see awesome things ahead, it's like I get scared of the idea that things could be so great. yes that sounds weird I know. I remember praying one night asking Heavenly Father a few questions just kinda about his plans for me. Then a thought came to me that seemed to say "If I told you, you would just mess it all up." I thought that was interesting because it seems to be true. There are some things that I know I could do but I'm not ready to know that. I can't wait for the moment when I am.

Some people were sent to be helped and others were sent to help. which are you?
I think at different times in our lives we are one or the other and sometimes even both. Sometimes trying to help someone else actually helps you more then it helps them :) and sometimes it's the other way.... anyways

Those are just some ideas of Jessalyn on life for today anyways. Since I think a lot I will most likely write more :) night

A Friend Always,
Me

#1 yeah so I felt like creating a blog

So I decided to create me one of these cool blog things where I can just like talk about life right? I think it's kinda cool to be able to share your thoughts with the world. I will probably post some of my song lyrics and ect. here and other random thoughts on life just cuz it's fun :) well it's late so that's all I'm writing tonight, but I have lots to share so I will keep posting :)
A Friend Always,
Me