So I've been on this whole princess thing for a while (like since last week sometime, like mondayish) anyways. I'm not sure how to describe what I've been thinking. I don't know why I'm so into the whole princess thing, but I really like the idea. I feel like my spirit inside me is ready to burst. It wants to come out and fly and show it's true royal beauty but part of me wants to keep my thoughts and such hidden. I feel like a little kid who is being told to grow up already. Except I'm 19 1/2. I shouldn't be imagining this fairytale life, at least that's what part of me is saying. but there's another part of me that feels this is right. I wish I could explain the pictures and dreams I see when I close my eyes and sometimes even when my eyes are open. I seem to be living in an altered reality. An altered reality that I actually really like. Except for the fact that others may think I'm crazy, but I guess they can think whatever they want. I just wish I could talk about things without people looking at me like I'm some crazy person. I wish I knew that people understood the way I see life. The idea of being a princess and becoming queen has made me want to be so much better and to work hard and just be my best. I want to be a queen and share the joy I've found with others. I wish I had the words or the skills to describe or draw the things my mind imagines or sees. When I talk about being a princess something inside me gets all excited like something inside me wants to be free. my ballroom dance class isn't helping because I go and feel as if I'm a princess at the ball, eventhough others may not see me the way I see me.
I just want to be a princess... this part of me seems to be longing to be set free. If only I could find the courage to let the world see me the way I see me.
Just some thoughts
A Friend Always,
Me
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